I apologize profusely for not sending you some inspiration on Thursday. I was at the Kyknet Silwerskerm Festival in Cape Town and things were just a bit crazy. I was blessed enough to be part of two Film productions that did very well. “Dis ek, Anna” won numerous awards and “Verskietende Ster” walked away with “Audience Favourite.” “Dis ek, Anna” will premier in October on the big screen and Verskietende Ster April next year. It was really awesome seeing friends, acquaintances and work colleagues from the industry. Some of them I haven’t seen for years and it was really great catching up.
I like people. I am a people’s person. I enjoy chatting and networking with as many people as possible. There was a time in my life I wanted everyone to be my friend. With the best of intentions, I tried to encourage friendships with certain individuals, although my attempts were repeatedly, discreetly rejected. I wanted everyone to like me and couldn’t understand when some people didn’t like me. I couldn’t handle the fact that certain people didn’t like me for no reason at all. It used to freak me out. I would become a people pleaser and lose my own voice.
It took years for me to understand that we were not born to like everyone. Even my parents at some point disliked me so badly that they couldn’t tolerate me for a second. That didn’t mean they didn’t love me. I have learned that while I can’t have everyone’s friendship, I can offer and receive respect, support and understanding. I have worked with many actors that I respect tremendously and they respect me, but somehow we have never solidified a friendship. We were not created to relate to everyone. I have accepted the fact that we all have our own journey. When people don’t like me for any reason, I have realised that it has nothing to with me and everything to do with them. What others think of me is none of my business anyway. What I think of me and what God thinks of me, that is my business.
I can’t change other people; I can only change my own attitudes. I can let go of my rules about how others should feel about me. When I am disappointed in another’s response, I can make an extra effort to be kind, warm, and loving to myself. I am ok just the way I am.
“To love oneself selflessly is the beginning of a lifelong romance”-Oscar Wilde